Obsession

I don't remember when I wrote this. I think it was last year when I indeed completed an 8 week course over a weekend and I was reflecting on my behaviour.

I am an obsessive person. I can complete an 8 week course over a weekend, finish reading a book in a day, fall into a rabbit hole and drill into a subject until I'm satisfied. I like to go with my feelings. I am insatiably curious but I don't want to specialise, at least I tell people that. In reality, I want to specialise in many areas but do not want to be known for one thing so I keep my identity flexible. I like being free. I don't like routines and schedules. I admire Da Vinci and wished I could live long enough to try multiple professions. I am both empty and full of energy. The emptiness feels like a big blank space and provides me with the free capacity to take in new information easily. Like waves in an ocean, I get obsessed and it gets released, I get obsessed and it gets released. I don't like rules. I don't like confining myself to one reality. I just want to do what I want to do and I can change my mind at any time.